April '25

Glimmers & Rage

Life has been handing out a ton of opportunities for practice these days. Some I receive with ease and some I have fought until I have no other option than to surrender, grieve and accept. Due to all of it I have found myself swinging between two very opposing emotions/sensations: Glimmers and Rage. 

There has been a wild amount of uncertainty in life these days, from the microcosm of personal life to the macro of government, country ,world… It is dizzying. The oscillation I find is between observing all the beauty this world and life have to offer; silly children, buds breaking the earth's surface once again, students embarking on new training journeys, the sparkle of the ocean, etc. and the wild ignorance of discrimination, cruelty and denying humans of truth and basic need. It is an emotional and energetic whiplash to say the least. 

So I have been working on feeling it all while trying to not be consumed. Sitting within the glimmers and rage and everything in between.

I have been leaning into the practice of Kriya Yoga; tapas svadhyaya ishvara pranidhana.

From my study and practices, this is recognizing that life is challenging, fiery at times, that it takes work, austerity and dedication to move through. That we have to commit to being in the fire to be molded by it not consumed and burned. 

When we are able to do that, the hard work,  we begin to study the self. We learn from these challenges, glean glimmers from them to move us forward in our experiences. 

And when we are able to move through these two, the fire and the self study, we arrive at the most important; ultimate surrender. Surrender to the divine timing and nature of what is. When we surrender we release attachments to the way things “should be” and allow ourselves to be fully open and content  in what is. This is a practice. One that changes with each experience, each challenge. A cycle we are always moving through.

So I am allowing myself to oscillate between the glimmers and the rage. To release both and move through the cycle of action, growing, learning and surrendering with every opportunity I receive.

Spring is a time when we can feel these practices intensely, as the weather begins to change and the growth begins to pop through. My offering to myself and to you is to be patient with yourself in the swing of feelings and emotions. Let them all be part of the process of healing and growth. Let us do our best to become aware, do the work and let go.